Haven't blogged in a while. But, I'm not sure what I would blog about.
I still have my job. I can't seem to make friends with any of my coworkers. They think I'm the quite girl. But, I just...don't have much in common with them. I forgot how hard it was to be around people with different beliefs and lifestyles.
I'm trying to think of one moment of positivity each day though. It's hard sometimes, when I just seem to wake up, read, run, and work.
Today I went to the lake. It was beautiful outside. I feel like the weather has been the highlight of the last couple days. That could be considered sad, but I think it brings me closer to the Savior.
I guess I've just been struggling adjusting to things. I keep telling myself, "Your future is as bright as your faith."
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Wisely Optimistic
I need not apply any words of sorry or regret for not posting lately, for my time has be occupied by some quite ordinary matters (of which you know some very well and others not so much). I have been training, as you know, at Wing Warehouse. For now, I will look to the job as a challenge and a missionary experience (the latter thanks to my friend Laura; she instilled me with this optimism).
In other matters, I have been reading Pride and Prejudice, as my language in writing might have alluded--for sometimes I too frequently adopt the habits of those I feel greatly acquainted with. I do not wish to portray any of my sentiments for which I am accustomed to feeling after finishing an intriguing novel. Nor do I want to express petty feelings of longing for a romance as Jane Austen so graciously offers us. All I wish to say on the matter is that I look to the future with optimism. One day I will be incandescently in love as to laugh and smile even more than usual. I will look back to these years of anticipation with gratefulness that they will soon be gone; however, the years will provide me the patience and maturity needed for the most precious gifts our Heavenly Father can bestow on his children: that of matrimony and posterity.
Until that journey begins, I must continue my efforts in improving my character. For there are so many faults I have time to correct, and many weaknesses that have yet to become my greatest strengths.
To end with a thought contrived by our dear President Eyring, "Be a Wise Optimist!"
In other matters, I have been reading Pride and Prejudice, as my language in writing might have alluded--for sometimes I too frequently adopt the habits of those I feel greatly acquainted with. I do not wish to portray any of my sentiments for which I am accustomed to feeling after finishing an intriguing novel. Nor do I want to express petty feelings of longing for a romance as Jane Austen so graciously offers us. All I wish to say on the matter is that I look to the future with optimism. One day I will be incandescently in love as to laugh and smile even more than usual. I will look back to these years of anticipation with gratefulness that they will soon be gone; however, the years will provide me the patience and maturity needed for the most precious gifts our Heavenly Father can bestow on his children: that of matrimony and posterity.
Until that journey begins, I must continue my efforts in improving my character. For there are so many faults I have time to correct, and many weaknesses that have yet to become my greatest strengths.
To end with a thought contrived by our dear President Eyring, "Be a Wise Optimist!"
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Serve Me Up Some Lovin'
Oh my gosh, oh my gosh. I don't really know how to incorporate these two random topics. But, here goes nothing.
I now work at Wing Warehouse. It's going to be an awesome job; the only thing I get nervous about is all the alcohol. I have never had a drop in my life. I don't know whether to wince or chuckle whenever I grab a drink for someone at the bar. It kinda turns out as both. So many mixed emotions about it, but I know that I can handle it.
Now, onto the most important thing of all time: a wedding. To my ETERNAL companion. Yeah, that's pretty legit. And, this morning I had some time to scroll on a LDS Wedding Blog before I went babysitting. I got hooked. I never really knew how I wanted my wedding to be planned. And now seeing all the different options, I still don't know! In my mind, I picture this really expensive, classy wedding. But, how much do I actually want to spend on it? I mean you've got the ring and the honeymoon and the first few penniless years ahead of you. Why waste your (or your parents') money on frills and flowers.
While I would want to go into my wedding with an open mind, I do have some ideas on certain things:
My perfect ring. Okay, so this might be cheesy to you, but it would mean a lot to me. One of my favorite scriptures is Psalms 31:10, "For who can find a virtuous woman, for her price is far above rubies." So, my perfect wedding ring would incorporate a diamond (which is my birthstone) and a ruby (it would show that we waited for each other!). I like things, especially jewelry, with meaning behind them. My favorite earring and necklaces were gifts from friends/family or have a story behind them. And, hopefully, the future guy would be able to incorporate his personality into the ring. BAM, that'd be the perfect ring.
And now, I know a little about my dress: three-quarter sleeve...that's about it.
I don't know what temple I'd like to be married in. Honestly, I'd kill for it in the Kirtland Temple; but, I don't think that's going to happen. I just think any temple would be great.
And as far as wedding colors go, my favorite color has been turquoise since 3rd grade. But, I don't know if I'd want that in a wedding color (the million shades of "turquoise" + my slight OCD = turquoise disaster). Who knows what I'll be in the mood for the day I pick my wedding colors. It will most likely be contested afterwards all the way up to the big day.
Now, keep in mind, this is IF I fall in love and get married. I'll be optimistic, but sometimes it's hard to see anyone falling in love with me! It reminds me of one of my favorite movies If A Man Answers. Sandra Dee's character says, "I don't know if you could keep me satisfied, Eugene, day after day and all through the night." ;)
And on that note, I bid you goodnight.
I now work at Wing Warehouse. It's going to be an awesome job; the only thing I get nervous about is all the alcohol. I have never had a drop in my life. I don't know whether to wince or chuckle whenever I grab a drink for someone at the bar. It kinda turns out as both. So many mixed emotions about it, but I know that I can handle it.
Now, onto the most important thing of all time: a wedding. To my ETERNAL companion. Yeah, that's pretty legit. And, this morning I had some time to scroll on a LDS Wedding Blog before I went babysitting. I got hooked. I never really knew how I wanted my wedding to be planned. And now seeing all the different options, I still don't know! In my mind, I picture this really expensive, classy wedding. But, how much do I actually want to spend on it? I mean you've got the ring and the honeymoon and the first few penniless years ahead of you. Why waste your (or your parents') money on frills and flowers.
While I would want to go into my wedding with an open mind, I do have some ideas on certain things:
My perfect ring. Okay, so this might be cheesy to you, but it would mean a lot to me. One of my favorite scriptures is Psalms 31:10, "For who can find a virtuous woman, for her price is far above rubies." So, my perfect wedding ring would incorporate a diamond (which is my birthstone) and a ruby (it would show that we waited for each other!). I like things, especially jewelry, with meaning behind them. My favorite earring and necklaces were gifts from friends/family or have a story behind them. And, hopefully, the future guy would be able to incorporate his personality into the ring. BAM, that'd be the perfect ring.
And now, I know a little about my dress: three-quarter sleeve...that's about it.
I don't know what temple I'd like to be married in. Honestly, I'd kill for it in the Kirtland Temple; but, I don't think that's going to happen. I just think any temple would be great.
And as far as wedding colors go, my favorite color has been turquoise since 3rd grade. But, I don't know if I'd want that in a wedding color (the million shades of "turquoise" + my slight OCD = turquoise disaster). Who knows what I'll be in the mood for the day I pick my wedding colors. It will most likely be contested afterwards all the way up to the big day.
Now, keep in mind, this is IF I fall in love and get married. I'll be optimistic, but sometimes it's hard to see anyone falling in love with me! It reminds me of one of my favorite movies If A Man Answers. Sandra Dee's character says, "I don't know if you could keep me satisfied, Eugene, day after day and all through the night." ;)
And on that note, I bid you goodnight.
Monday, May 9, 2011
WWW.
Hey guys!
So, I'd like to dedicate today's post to the blessings of the internet.
So, I'd like to dedicate today's post to the blessings of the internet.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Day in the Life...
Today was spent mostly thinking about two things: running and jobs. I am starting to desperately want a full-time job. I mean, I need more structure in my life. Is that sad?
But, to save you from a boring rant about my desperation and futile attempts, I'll go into my running obsession. In the last 24 hrs, I've watched two running movies. Verdict? Fantastic. I can't stop thinking about running. I felt bad, though, that my mind strayed to running even during scripture study! I think the most important thing to realize is that running can actually help us turn more to our Savior and our Heavenly Father. I think any LDS runner would agree. Many prayers are said before a race, during a hard workout, in the midst of physical injury, and after accomplishing a goal. When you push your body and mind to its limits, you have to find something to pull you through it. And when you come out triumphant, you gain a greater testimony in that thing that kept you going. It's hard to describe.
So, to track my progress in running, I decided to run a half-marathon this summer. It's on August 13th. It's kinda on the complete opposite side of the state. I might need to encourage other college, SMFHS alumni to join me. My goal is to someday qualify for the Boston Marathon. I think by no coincidence does this marathon occur on or around my birthday.
Oh, I almost forgot one more thing:
How blessed I have been, let me tell you. Somehow, with a lot of prayers and faith, the Lord helped me do it!
So, to track my progress in running, I decided to run a half-marathon this summer. It's on August 13th. It's kinda on the complete opposite side of the state. I might need to encourage other college, SMFHS alumni to join me. My goal is to someday qualify for the Boston Marathon. I think by no coincidence does this marathon occur on or around my birthday.
Oh, I almost forgot one more thing:
Grades for Winter 2011 |
Monday, May 2, 2011
I haven't been on in a while! Sorry guys! Let's see, I'll try to inform you on my ever so exciting life.
-Finished Rowan and the Travelers
-Started Pride and Prejudice
-Visited my dear friend Natalie. It's people like that that really make me cherish friends and help me have charity.
-For a week, I completed my goal of running for 5 out of the 7 days.
-I went to a Singles' Activity on Saturday night. Met so many amazing people.
-Fasted. How awesome is that?
-I played Ultimate Frisbee. And people actually threw me the frisbee. I didn't completely suck!
-Testimony meeting. Different than BYU, but people still have the same simple testimonies in the truth.
-I made a casserole! And there were no leftovers!
-Spent all day at the church, meeting new people. Getting to know and love the members of the Easthill Branch.
-Started making an inventory of my family's food.
-Babysat last Friday.
-Watched "Long Green Line"
-Watched "The Testament."
-Went to my younger sister's orchestra concert (brought me back to 7 years of orchestra).
-Won two free tickets for scuba diving lessons!
Okay, so some of that is out of order. And usually I would comment on each one of these. However, I don't want to bore you with details.
I guess, what I've come to understand this past year is really who I am. I struggled with that for years. In middle school, I was trying to fit in. Some girls showed me how to dress, how to put on make-up, etc. But, I ended up being just a clone. Then, I discovered my loud voice in Speech and Debate. In all my years of high school, I kept trying to please people. My coach, my teacher, my parents especially. But, sometimes at the sacrifice of who I am. This past year, I found strength in aspects I never thought possible. And now, I know how to handle problems. And stress. And weakness. It doesn't seem so impossible anymore. And the only person I want to please more than anything is my Heavenly Father.
Random blurb, but it gives me some perspective. Plus, I just watched this epic running movie "The Long Green Line." Watch it for free on Hulu, guys! So good. I think the most important thing is finding little things that will motivate you. Even if it's motivation to get out of bed, or to finish the day with a smile. Find something that gives you hope and that will give you a sense of your potential.
-Finished Rowan and the Travelers
-Started Pride and Prejudice
-Visited my dear friend Natalie. It's people like that that really make me cherish friends and help me have charity.
-For a week, I completed my goal of running for 5 out of the 7 days.
-I went to a Singles' Activity on Saturday night. Met so many amazing people.
-Fasted. How awesome is that?
-I played Ultimate Frisbee. And people actually threw me the frisbee. I didn't completely suck!
-Testimony meeting. Different than BYU, but people still have the same simple testimonies in the truth.
-I made a casserole! And there were no leftovers!
-Spent all day at the church, meeting new people. Getting to know and love the members of the Easthill Branch.
-Started making an inventory of my family's food.
-Babysat last Friday.
-Watched "Long Green Line"
-Watched "The Testament."
-Went to my younger sister's orchestra concert (brought me back to 7 years of orchestra).
-Won two free tickets for scuba diving lessons!
Okay, so some of that is out of order. And usually I would comment on each one of these. However, I don't want to bore you with details.
I guess, what I've come to understand this past year is really who I am. I struggled with that for years. In middle school, I was trying to fit in. Some girls showed me how to dress, how to put on make-up, etc. But, I ended up being just a clone. Then, I discovered my loud voice in Speech and Debate. In all my years of high school, I kept trying to please people. My coach, my teacher, my parents especially. But, sometimes at the sacrifice of who I am. This past year, I found strength in aspects I never thought possible. And now, I know how to handle problems. And stress. And weakness. It doesn't seem so impossible anymore. And the only person I want to please more than anything is my Heavenly Father.
Random blurb, but it gives me some perspective. Plus, I just watched this epic running movie "The Long Green Line." Watch it for free on Hulu, guys! So good. I think the most important thing is finding little things that will motivate you. Even if it's motivation to get out of bed, or to finish the day with a smile. Find something that gives you hope and that will give you a sense of your potential.
“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.” -Albert Camus, in John Bartlett, comp., Familiar Quotations, 16th ed. (1980), 732.
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